Fear

Fear can consume your mind and neglect it  
Darkening every light and misdirects it
Sometimes you need to smoke a Marlboro and spit a sentence
Just to make it through the day where you headin?
Fear burned in my soul like a message  
I’ve lived with fear so long he's like my best friend  
Love and Fear it’s like they were destined  
Walking alone a lonely road no direction  
Fear seeing the future like it’s a projection  
Fear is someone you shouldn’t mess with  
Fear frozen in time no progression  
Guess Fear is something like depression  
Consuming everything until there’s nothing within  
Lost myself in “Fear” since I was eleven  
Seven years passed nothing change so what then?
“Just stay strong” don't you think I’ve tried it?
Can you hear the pain behind my voice or when I'm smilin?
Or the pain I put behind what I’m writin?
Or the thousands of scars that I'm hidin  
A little smile here a little laugh there everyone buys it  
Welcome to a thousand nights of cryin  
Welcome to a thousand razors over my skin slidin  
Welcome to the convincing tone in my voice when I'm lyin  
The truth only comes out when I'm writin  
How can it be so dark when the sun's shinin  
Reality got me writin in tears instead of pen  
A gun is my one way ticket to Neverland
Forgive me father for I have sinned
Finally succeeded not another failed attempt.