I hate/love you

Why can't you leave my head
Why can't I just have rest
You're a grade A asshole
But I love you so
I don't wanna go so just murder me
I'm sure it's better than this misery
I can't let you see
What you've done to me
I can still smell you
It's thick and true
I miss your embrace
But fuck that's not the case
And I don't wanna go
So just murder me
I'm sure it's better than what you've done to me
You're image drowns my thoughts
Like the stormy sea
I can't escape the thought
Of what you've done to me
But I can't hate/love you
Cause I still hate/love you
Did I ruin kamikaze for you?
Cause I sure as hell ruined it for me