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My Dark Mind
I think of death and have my whole life;
trying to hide thoughts on it
that shaped my mind when I was so young.
I stared at his dead body; my abuser’s,
In some deadpan stricken relief --
saved from suicide.
I don’t know where those thoughts came from;
the ones that said I had to die. But they left me.
I’m sensitive to know that death is a part of life.
If death is on my mind, then it is in my bones.
My dark mind is filled with my own.
Just to be certain.
Published 6th Oct 2016
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6th Oct 2016 5:12pm
Our darkness is an essential part of our light's ability to brightly shine.
I feel such thoughts are a reminder of that fact - and are imperative
for balance of not only the Spirit but the body and mind as well.
Thank you for sharing, Pish. I really enjoyed this one.
I feel such thoughts are a reminder of that fact - and are imperative
for balance of not only the Spirit but the body and mind as well.
Thank you for sharing, Pish. I really enjoyed this one.
7th Oct 2016 1:45am
I was raised in dark silence where my mind shown light on everything around me and never a question answered …except to say leave it alone. Of course I didn't understand it. I settled for a long time with that life. You are always revealing the divine in the living, which is damn near impossible, and I love you for it. Thank you, Ahavati.
6th Oct 2016 5:21pm
In order for the light to shine- we must face the dark. Those who hide from the dark never find the light. I'm so glad we faced our fears!
7th Oct 2016 1:50am
Your comment reminded me... "It is not the open mind that I fear; it is the mind I fear that fears itself, in that it traps itself into such an existence." Thank you, Maenad. I'm glad too. :)
5th Aug 2017 7:58pm
Agreed! When we fold in on ourselves we collapse! You're so very welcome and thank you again for the glorious imagery♡
6th Oct 2016 10:41pm
We only get a sight of darkness when looking at the whole…such as same of the light...such as the same as the world. (analytical perspective) Darkness is ignorance. We did not just fall of the turnip truck yesterday to know that light and dark are just symbolism. In reality there’s not much darkness here at all, just my story and the lessons learned. And as well a potential that it could reach. Darkness for me is guilt. All my guilt lay in the part of me that lived – that is my darkness and a grizzly thing to bare at times. Paul, always, thank you for your comments...
7th Oct 2016 2:00am
Can't see no Darkness here Pisha! just a brave soul breaking her own set barrier to say what she held back... can see only light and brightness here...
7th Oct 2016 5:22pm
"breaking her own set barrier to say what she held back" its a tough thing... I have very much held my mind to restraints. Thank you, KD for the awesome insight.
7th Oct 2016 4:20am
Death and darkness are part of us all and maybe some of us are more aware,maybe life itself has made us that way,but light is that much brighter and poetry draws it out of us.
Beautiful poetry....
Beautiful poetry....
7th Oct 2016 5:31pm
You're sensitive to the knowing and I can appreciate your presence as I feel the wisdom of your words. Life and death are the whole shebang, I must say... Thank you so much, Kasai. Hoping your day is filled with the color of life.
8th Oct 2016 00:42am
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