Rot

I see you in my dreams that burn
Only to awake in agony
I scream out as loud as i can
But yet i cant speak
No im not ok
No im not fine
Im fair from fucking happiness
That much is true
I feel like my chest is split in two
And the only really thing i feel is
The deep gash in my heart
Yet here i am
Wondering why?
Why?
do i even really want to know?
Forsake me
Leave for to rot like every one else
This dream i live
Is only a nightmare i wish to wake from
I would have given you my throne and soul
I would of walk to death and back for you
But know whats that point
This rotting world.... Needs to die
No im not mad.
I just hate this stupid life