Enduring...

I've been enduring despair, the hope is absent, and i don't have any idea how to get it back...

I have ceased trying to find it...and that is okay with me. I don't know if i can can continue like this...

I'm not talking about Suicide, oh no my old friends, I'm talking about leaving; Vacating...

I can't take this aching i endure on a daily basis, it's becoming to much.

I want to end it all before i become a massive disillusionment, and i don't want to see that occur, at least not in front of me...

Call me egocentric, call me a coward, but i dont want to be at the place at the time of the disillusionment...

Please recognize where im coming from, because i really need someone to. Im leaving everything i love, but im doing it to make myself better and everyone elses life easy...

Enduring will soon be gone, i will not endure anything anymore, and that's okay...