A Better LIfe

Sometimes, I wish things were never how there now existed.
So I can paint a new, better life with words that i scripted.
And toss away my sins, that followed me from the moment i could stand
or until the day my life meets it's end.
Or create a better existence,
where I make better decision.
Like bettering my education,
instead of just getting high and
letting the regret pile up into the sky.
But, these words probably means little to nothing to you,
at least not until my face starts to turn blue
and my body goes numb,
that's when the thoughts of me will start to run.
But never before, only after,
I put the proverbial pen down
and end this chapter.