I'm fine, thanks.

My mind is not a nice place
My mind is not a nice place
My mind is not a nice place
My mind is not a nice place

So I do anything to get out of it.
I lose myself in a nice girl
I lose myself in the liquor
I lose myself in the music
Makes no difference to me
I fall into my vices
I pick myself up
I fall back in
I pick myself back up
I ride the wave between sobriety and addiction like it's second nature

Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck

I cuss too much
I talk too much
I think too much
I dive into excesses

One way or another

I don't know what to make of me half the time
The other half of the time I don't like what I see

I pour myself another shot
Take a swig of one poison or another

Everyday is the same

We all get addicted to something that takes the pain away
Trading one demon for another
and I've been bartering all my life
Switching one for the other with ease

A bloody battle raging  
behind my smile
lurking just beneath my laughter

But I control what you see
I am the master of me

Or at least so I like to think

Rambling
Rambling
Rambling

Always rambling

Writing
Writing
Writing

Always writing

Some say that makes me a poet

I never know what to say to that

I never know what to make of that

I write to keep the lights on upstairs a little longer

I write my thoughts down so I do not have to claw them out of my head

I do what I do because it is what I must.

My demons demand release one way or another

Sweet reprieve
For an illusory eternity

The page beckons to me like the understanding friend that I'll never have
And I take advantage, I burden it with my madness

I pour
And I bleed
And I write
And I write
And I write



Till the clamoring fades









and my mind is mine again









#TMA