One thought too manny

I saw my stair high above
Its was there for me and for me alone
Its was the brightest of them all
Then on day may skys went black
Im i lost in a dream?
Or drowning in reality?
Where im i now...
My heart is blaken in the absents of a stair
My eyes are lost in my sarrows
I lay in pain
Knowing no one truly cares
I cant breath
For my chest hurts way to much
I was always given the worst of every thing
What im i to do but just hope to die
So ya i may be a little negitive
But do you blame me?
And be for you think im mad
Im not I just hate life.