Close To You

I feel as though i should place my pride somewhere else
At times I crave you in the worst ways
I feel that I should reach out to you
But I fear the rejection that you'll say
I run my fingers through my hair
Hours of tears until my eyes finally dry
Words sit on my lips while your a call away
You won't answer this time
Feel your absence like a ghost
My heart feels like a house that someone died in
The things you do when you're lonely
Seem so crazy and surprising
Read old messages so much I know them by heart
You were so beautiful
Reminded me of art
I still think about you
I doubt you ever wonder but I do
I've blocked and unblocked you to say unspoken I love you's
I decided not to forget you
Memories make you feel closer to me
I think of all the promises
Remember you said you'd never leave
I would never tell you these things
But I will always write about you
I may even tell my future kids
You had this light about you
Left your mark on me
On my heart lies your fingerprint
My love that got away
This is what I leave you with