totality

i'm under that cigarette cherry in the sky.
 
but i have love for the hateful sun.
that malicious star.
that i can't even look at without damaging my eyes.
 
 
totality.
 
 
i'm looking out through the sliding glass door.
the curtains dancing in the wind,
waving goodbye to the world.
 
i'm thinking about this dream i had
where i'm underwater.
 
my body is brimming with hydrogen & helium.
my own personal hell within.
 
 
i can hear the sound of human skulls cracking and buckling  
under the weight  
of heaven