Goodbye

His elbow bent
Hand wrapped tightly around the gun
Index finger slightly touching the trigger
He holds the gun to his head...

He reminisces...

How could i have let this happen
Let her turn me into something i wasnt
Is this what life holds for me?
Everything i have worked for all gone

Tears stream down his face
Finger itching to pull the trigger
He recalls the things he seen her do
He grits his teeth in pain and anger

Why couldn't she forgive me
He ponders...
His legs start to tremble
Sweat and tears roll down his face and cheeks

He cannot forgive himself for the things he's done
How could she?
He looks back in self disgust
Maybe the memories would have gone away with time
He thought...

He questions...

Is this the man i was supposed to become
Something has gone wrong
And he has suffered irreversible pain

He whispers to himself
Tears still running
This is it
Goodbye world...I'm sorry...