(C)unning (St)unt

Always in the back of my mind
That true love's a struggle to find
It's proved fatal to me, too many times
So I'mma stick to doing just what I like
And if it's alright with you, to put our differences aside
And call it a night, fine
Always in the palm of your hand
My heart is like the drum to a band
Essential, influencial like the sea to the sand
Tugged so much, don't even know where I am
And where were you?
Too much to ask for you to love me too
It's must we do, argue over little things, that's how you grew
So did I but now it's getting old
I don't want love to feel like home
Always fantasised me running away, I'm gone
Never one to facade a debate, I tell you straight, you know
It's always me to make the effort
If I don't reply, you forget it
Make no attempt to connect
When I stress you're upset
Even when I vent you're upset
When I'm happy you get snappy that's that shit I'll never get
So I'mma lay this to rest
I'll put it bed
Scared to love with my heart
Use my head
It's Use-e-less
Don't even think we could still be friends
I thought we both cared but then again
I thought it'd last forever
We were walking this path together
Built a fortress of our being to shelter the weather
But using my heart as shield could never be clever