I Will Fix it For Us (Julia C.)

And you’ve learned to kill on sight, and distrust the world around you. I know how you got that way, but you can calm now I’ve found you.
I was just like you, thought being a weapon was my only recourse. From what I’d felt the world bruised, and had no kindness for me.
But the truth is you must create it - to make a family, you must give yourself. The hardest thing is to be vulnerable, but it’s the only way to ever feel safe.
You must trust first, and believe first, you must be selfless first, you must listen first, you must comfort first. I promise you can have everything if you reach out first...
But you don’t need to right now, cause I’ll make it Right now. I’m here to save, I’ll be the white knight that never came for me.
I know it’s scary, I still get that feeling. But I will fix it, it’s always better than nothing. I will save you if you let me.
I will make this all mean right. I will make a refuge for us, a place for love and solace, a place that is fair and kind, fair and kind. I will make it possible, because I know what they need...
They need-this indefinable connection, this love is the very air we breathe. I must let it make me stronger. The terror, not paralysing.
It’s ok if it’s not okay for me, cause I’m here to make it better. I’m coming for you; won’t let you let go, I won’t let you fail, I will make it alright for you.
I will reach out first, and the world will meet my expectations. Because everything that is once wasn’t, and boundaries are just words. And I can make something unique, I don’t need to live within the limits. I know we’re off track, I don’t really know why. But I’m not here to crack, no I’m not here to cry.
I’m here to fix it, it’s my job to fix you and pass it on,
I’ll give you my job, to do when I’m gone.
You feel it, that humanising warmth? It’s making you okay,
you’re safe here I promise.