I lose control

I willingly lose control
wishing I could take it back
wishing I could give you all my love
knowing somewhere deep within
that I am lost and you will win

How can you love this frail
and miserable creature
always wondering if she's enough
wishing she could talk to you
and you would understand
that you are beautiful and young
and time will be hard

I love you more than words can ever tell
I wish I could break that spell
I need to tell you who I am
but time will not abide

I have asked you to understand
but that is not where I am
I am at the edge and wishing I could
end it all by telling you
just how I feel

To love you is quite ironic as you are but
a bit of myself that never lets go