Lemonade

Comfort and change never occupy the same space,  
So I suffer in hopes I may find some grace,  
I discover in this place colors are quick to fade,  
In the space that remains nothing seems the same,  
I am afraid of my own name,  
Afraid to play this game I helped create,  
I can't wait to make it,  
Evade my mistakes,  
I can no longer fake shit,  
That was yesterday's fate,  
I was aimlessly complacent,  
I trade the shade to carry my own weight,  
I just may gain some patience,  
A renegade against my old ways,  
I got a new phase with a new cadence,  
I will lay down the spades,  
I can’t wait for the amazing,  
I will jump on the grenade,  
No more training,  
So I may say,  
Look what I am making,  
You can call it lemonade,  
I call it breathtaking,  
Life gave me pain,  
I stopped complaining and-  
Began changing.  
 
 
 
I know nothing good happens over night  
But I should write something,  
 A few more precious lines,  
I never understood how to reach fantastic heights,  
If I could take that galactic flight,  
I would fall like a meteorite,  
That’s alright,  
I guess even success is finite,  
I guess I need stress sometimes,  
I can’t even lie,  
If I survive this climb even I will be surprised  
Will I find my prime before I say that last goodbye?  
It is all fine if I just learn to love myself,  
You know, I don’t own anything else,  
With one story to tell,  
I better sell it sell it well,  
It starts and ends with me,  
Selfish it seems,  
But selfless I dream,  
Serenity isn’t cheap  
But I believe I can achieve,  
Unweave the deep mysteries,  
Sleep easy with all my history,  
Release me from my miseries,  
If only when I read this poetry  
I know i may be totally