IM SCARED...

I'm scared of my own thoughts, I'm scared that one day I'm gonna kill myself and be nothing but a corpse
Whose been buried in the ground six feet under left and forgotten
Because as a young boy I was always let down by those who said they loved me and cared, and it felt unfair
Imagine being 9 years old and being told that you wasn't worth jack shit and you being a kid you didn't understand so you wasn't old enough to switch

I'm scared

I'm scared that someday I'm gonna meet the girl of my dreams but she aint gonna be interested in me because I suffer from depression an severe anxiety
I'm scared that the demons round my bed are gonna kill me in my sleep because throughout my entire life I've been put through pain by those I thought actually gave a fuck
Bullshit, its all bullshit
You see people say they care but really they're just words and not actions
Its as if people feel sorry for you since you lacked that somewhat attention as a kid so now they're the strangers that feel as if they gotta make up for it

I'm scared

I'm scared what people think of me
I'm scared what goes through their heads when I open my mouth in order to speak
I'm scared about their opinions and judgements as I'm weak
I'm seventeen but still act like a child because ive been broken down, bullied, abused and left alone
And I try to fit into their scene but people don't wanna know me for me
They see me as an outsider and a freak because well just look at me

I'm scared, I'm scared of my own thoughts