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When Reality Meets Expectations
He said wait on him
And honestly I thought I was
But could it be
Just maybe
I was only waiting on the mirage
I thought was him
This idealized version of him
That I created in my head
Was it truly ever really him that I waited on
Or was it the dream I painted with him in it
Was it the man in rare form
Or was it something I saw in him
That represented all I thought I wanted
What if
Just what if
He was never really real
And everything I thought I wanted
Was that
Just a dream
A mirage
And it never truly existed
What if
Just maybe
Everything I thought he was
Was only but the opposite in real life
What if I only waited
Because in my mind he was my imperfectly perfect person
But behind the rose colored glasses
He’s nothing I truly expected
Or would have wanted
And he turns out to be
Just like the rest of them
Over thinking
Hmmm
Maybe
But what if
My thoughts are more rational than delusional
Built on concrete reasons
Instead of a tainted past
Chest tightens
I can’t breathe
What if I truly wasted all these years
And he is nothing like I expected
What a great build up
To a massive let down
And an imaginary life
I had envisioned
Goes up in flames
Before it ever even played out
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Published 5th Jul 2016
| Edited 4th Aug 2016
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6th Jul 2016 7:29pm
Oh damn that kinda letdown has to be massively disappointing! Sadly I've had a few 'reality checks' that made me know better than to hope for much out of my dreams...this was poignant my dear lady...
7th Jul 2016 8:08pm
Thanks hun.... Those damn reality checks boy I tell you, but sometimes the dream isn't really a dream but bc you are so used to the let down you already start expecting it and then the what if's creep in. Sometimes the what if's can damage something that really could have been something like your dream..... Hugs...
11th Jul 2016 7:39pm
If reality ever met expectations we'd all be happy campers, unfortunately we've all experienced a similar tribulation like the one you beautifully written.
This type of ink makes you want to go find your ex, no matter how long you've been split up, and just slap him for the hell-of-it. :)
Pen Love~
This type of ink makes you want to go find your ex, no matter how long you've been split up, and just slap him for the hell-of-it. :)
Pen Love~
3rd Aug 2016 3:27pm
3rd Aug 2016 12:36pm
You had me dangling on edge with this hun,
a bit frightened as well, as my mind, lungs,
heart, and whole body tensed up but
hung for dear life.
My gosh hun, whew.
-Howlings
a bit frightened as well, as my mind, lungs,
heart, and whole body tensed up but
hung for dear life.
My gosh hun, whew.
-Howlings
3rd Aug 2016 3:28pm
LMBO!!! Wow!!! Well alrighty then... I love it..... Thanks for passing through and showing love to the newest kid on the block.... :0)
~BSavvy
~BSavvy
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4th Aug 2016 4:05pm
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4th Aug 2016 4:14pm
Thanks Nemo!!! I agree even though at times one would feel regrets in the moment, when they take a moment and look at everything with a broader scope, there really shouldn't be any regrets because whether real or imagined it was still beautiful.... Thanks agian for the love shown...
~BSavvy
~BSavvy
