Suicide Notes and warped reality

Isolation
Cold dead space
Stretching out between the ocean and I
The emptiness resides within me
I'm loss somewhere between my descisions and confusion
My feelings not making any sense to me
But I tell myself
"Just a bit longer"

Coldness seeps down to my very bones
Freezing me in this way
Leaving me in a way, Of what I fear the most
I reach for something unseen
Hoping for something, anything to keep me from dying this way
But alas nothing my hand does so grasp
I know its possible, something there once was
Only to be gone

And I repeat the statement
"Just a bit longer"

The sun descends over and down the hill, only to be never seen again
Leaving me in everlasting darkness

Light was something I never truly possessed anyway

Just a bit longer

Darkness wraps me in her beautiful wings
Hiding me from reality
She feeds me my own bitterness
And I can see no one, therefore they cannot see me

Just a bit longer

I look into my captors eyes
She shows no sign, or desire of saving me
It is not that she cannot see my pain
It is that she and I know the truth
I have been poisoned one too many times
So she spreads her wings and passes me by

The soil of the Earth is the only thing holding me here
I wish my body would decay, instead of trappind me here

I try to think back
Try to remember
How did I even end up here?
In my little grave by the side of the sea

Yet no one noticed, they continued with their lives
As if I were never even real

Shimmering in the darkness I gaze at Luna
Her silver glow sparkles on the water
I hear her sinister laugh as she mocks me

I give in, take the plunge
The cold water swallows me whole
Dragging me to the bottom of the Sea
This is no longer a nightmare but a sweet dream

And the wind does so whisper
"Rest in Peace"