To everyone who ever hated me

When I was young I didn't feel much love,
My parents were telling me it came from above,
I didn't really see it cause every kid at school wanted to give me shove,
Peer pressure and bullying,
Every word hits like a bee sting,
But see knowledge is power,
So make use of every hour,
Before this life makes us sour,
We weren't sent here to devour,
We weren't sent here to cower,
If life makes you feel dirty then go take a shower,
Even then Some uncleanliness can't be washed away,
Maybe you'll feel cleaner if you go and pray,
Or maybe this negativity is here to stay,
Man I can't take another day,
Depression anxiety I'm getting lost in the fray,
What they say,
is that the creator molded me this way,
Out of wet clay,
Who said that was fair?
I didn't ask for red hair,
I didn't ask to breathe your air,
This isn't your world and I'm sorry you have to share,
But Didn't you teach your kids not to stare?
No little girl it's not a disease those are just the freckles on my arm,
And They wonder why not fitting in makes me want to self harm,
But hey adversity is part of this worlds charm,
At least I don't act like was was raised in a barn,
I don't know what I did to deserve your hate,
That spreads cause you let it propagate,
But Being beaten into the dust is not my fate,
So why do I want to self medicate,
When I'm lost in this toxic mind state,
Even breathing doesn't seem that great,
Just because you think I don't have a soul,  doesn't mean I can't feel,
What do I have to do just to be whole,
Then again is any of this real?
I can tell I'm on a role,
Cause even though life takes its toll,
I'm going to reach my goal,
No matter what anyone said,
Even the ones who thought id end up dead,
I had to work to get those words out of my head,
My mind is a battlefield where even demons fear to tread,
Wish I had some angels instead,
Of this monkey on my back,
Can't you just let me get on track?
Can't I have just one day where you slack?
But see this world doesn't come with a how to starter pack,
You get started then you find what you lack,
Watch out negativity cause this is a positive attack,
When we shine together darkness can't remain intact,
So we can't even give evil Time to react,
But This is not a gimmick it's just a fact.