My mistake

Listening and always listening,
Hearing myself from a distance,
not a chance for my will,
for always please i will,
As life beatings rains,
it all is my mistake.

Told it all will be alright ,
agree, move on, accept,
predicament i lie in,
the bed i personally made,
Cant cry, cant tell, cant scream,
i realize twas my mistake.

So deep, so under, am drowning,
i call out, but only to one over,
hoping and praying my pleas reach,
but i look and realize am alone,
don't know, don't believe, not anymore,
my own fall my mistake.