Procrastinator's Land

Worry worry worry worry-- thought leads to thought lead to thought and I am exhausted.
Whirring brain, under strain
and I am ashamed
one credit course in three days about the history of oppression,
I don't know if I can make it on time
damn procrastination
have all the final exams above 80, time crunch, running out of time
writing to calm my nerves
writing explicit details of my current predicament to somehow take some power out
evacuate some of the terror and the viciousness of the crunch
Mind racing from anti-semitism, to racism, to various types of racism
violence, cultural imperialism, marginalization, exploitation and powerlessness
and resistance
and strength
Anti-semitsim isn't allowed on the anti-racist agenda of social work schools.
why not?
what are we hung up on?
where is that detailed devil that keeps us down?
laborers, women, LGBT, disability
and on and on and on
Perks to sink my teeth into
and discuss til the cows come home but no
I'm alone in an apartment reading and reading and reading
and worrying and worrying
round and round the thoughts the ideas not to be expressed just tested
Immigration
expansion
war
dehumanization
stigmatization
I could go on
But
I cooked my goose so now I better eat it