Old and new

Pain..sadness..it used to be an everyday thing for me
But now most of it has gone and finally I can see
The backbone I had..my family
The muscle and skin..my friends and other kin
The being who put them there..God
But I was so blinded from the glint of the blade
The darkness of the voices went to a new depth of shade
The red that has spilled from my skin was a waste
It made me feel like an even bigger disgrace
But now I see that there was no point..Instead of looking for a sharp object
I should've been looking for the universal joint: Love
My mind scrambles for a reason but there's none for the madness
No reason that I had to shun away happiness
Now I welcome it with open arms and you should too
Come around to my side and share my point of view