Muscles

His sullen searchlight eyes caught me    
felt so safe in his strong arms so free    
showed the woman in me felt her feel    
and thanked the stars for making it real    
   
Our next date takes place within a week    
omg i can't believe it am so excited eek    
in my tight brown slacks i pretty my face    
and my thoughts were all over the place    
   
We sat for a while he fixed me a drink    
it tasted a bit strange a cocktail i think    
asked me to feel the muscle in his arm    
i smiled and complied what's the harm    
   
Soon he suggested we walk to a bar    
to show me off and that it wasn't far    
clung to his arm it was late September    
how long we stayed i can't remember    
   
i half emerge from the darkest night    
feel so drained something's not right    
shearing pain shoots through my leg    
can't move at all and mumbling i beg    
   
Slacks caught on my ankles he's mad    
and hurting me so much but he's glad    
using all my strength i kick them loose    
now i´m laid bare for his brutal abuse    
   
Flips me over i'm like a doll in his grip    
those are his fingers in me not the tip    
too drunk to fuck punches my behind    
felt my body fading out with my mind    
   
Blackness and then i'm on my knees    
what was i doing still trying to please    
like a used up toy he sends me away    
i  am never going to forget that day    
   
Comes here drunk knocks on my door    
i'm a friend he has warm feelings for    
while his sullen eyes fill me with dread    
i think to myself i wish you were dead