I Have Grown

When you messaged me
The only thought in my head was why
What would you, could you want...
In the past you have only made me cry

I looked at the text and couldn't believe
That you would try this act again
You message me asking me how I am
Are expecting me to fall with you in sin?

I ask you who you are, in case you forgot my number
I reply after because I was curious, no more
I want to ignore you, but you need to know one thing
For you see, my heart is a shut and locked door

Are you having problems with your pretty girlfriend?
Is that why you are hinting at inviting me over
My brain woke up saying your name after we talked
I hold my breath, my heart takes cover

"Back the fuck up, I'm over you"
I tell the whispers in my head and heart
I pointedly remind myself of everything you've done
You brutally tore my heart apart

I text you back because I am curious, no more
You're are not good for me, for I have grown
I have found peace in my heart and in my head
It's fragile, and barely standing but it's my own