Alone

Whispering tears don't say enough  
Do they?  
If they all dried up and left me  
pale and breathless  
Would you then  
care so much  
as to put me first?  
In my dying death    
in years to come  
or accidentally sooner than  
expected    
could you then see the pain  
at last because it shows    
outwardly?  
Are my frustrations and doubt  
and heartache  
of unimportance    
as invisible as I seem to you?  
Am I not pretty enough  
to stroke and touch  
to hold before your phone?  
Am I incapable of earning    
your love  
attention    
affection  
existence    
is it just too much?  
I cannot fathom  
this long living sorrow  
as if it were grief  
from being widowed  
and left alone  
by her world  
her heart  
and soul  
her lover. ..