Why I Chose to Blow Myself Away

Dear Mom, Grandma, and Jenny,
When you read this you’ll know that I’m already dead.
Don’t worry. It wasn’t your fault.
How would you know that my heart felt weighted with lead?
Or that my emotions where in total tumult?
It wasn’t your fault that the pressure to be ‘perfect’ got to me.
And when people bullied and teased
I never let you see the affect that it had on me.
You just accepted the lies that I told you as I breezed
Through your numerous questions about school and my life.
You’re probably crying now and that’s okay,
As long as you don’t blame yourselves for my internal strife.
I just couldn’t handle the voices inside my head and the depression today.
And that, Mom, Grandma, and Jenny, is why I chose to blow myself away.