You know(just feelings not really poetry)

You know letting go is a hard thing to do
It's even harder when you can't actually ever do it. I guess that's why they say it's hard. Or maybe I'm just pathetic could knock us both and say I'm desperate. Damn I wish I was desperate, then at least I could replace you with someone who was just another warm body. But I don't care about another body to keep me warm cause the only one I want is yours. The thought of someone else touching me makes my stomach turn. No need to ask for loyalty, cause it's already given. Not because you expect it, but I want no one else. Lips on my body, hands caressing my skin. I'll tell you no more than we are back at it again. You call my bluff every time and even though I'm serious, I always let you cross back over the line. You know most women would wish themselves to hatred, but I'm too smart for that. Hate is the opposite of love, 2 sides of the same coin. What I need to feel is indifference-absolutely nothing or be a really good liar. Unfortunately for me, I just happen to be neither. So I'm stuck in this cycle spinning and no matter how long I run I know I'm not winning. Sometimes I think, maybe I could just tell you I don't feel for you anymore but you'd know I was lying.