cyanide daisy

the people had to be  
and wished you never seen  
I know that I'm not the best babe  
but I tried  
and never claimed to be the best  
really damn close tho  
but
I chose my self  
when I should have chosen you  
selfish ways
and I pushed you away
I know I'm not the best
and neither are you  
we really kinda suck babe
but I tried with you  
I loved you when you were down or up to
unconditionally I loved you
but I spoiled you  
and you took advantage as long as you could to
un till I threw you to the curb
at 130 in morning  
fuck it was raining to  
I do feel kinda bad about that
but then I laugh  
then kinda miss
that one last kiss I missed  
shit  
we both met fucked up  
my shit just a little more solid
cuz thats how I strut
never again will I live on a step  
but I wanted to give you a chance
the moment I met you I fell in love
seen the hell and pain you were in  
and you seen me  
the pain and hellfire burned deeply in me  
you could speak to me intelligently  
openly  
with no fear of judging  
we spoke openly  
I plotted and schemed  
on how to get you with me  
and away from that leech  
either way I won I think  
you ended up with me  
at least for a moment
now it's history  
but you gave me something  
and not std's  
you gave me love I never felt before  
and to me that means everything
even in the end  
you crushed my heart brutally  
but that taught me something to  
I just want you more and you cant get rid of me lol
I'm always here for you even tho you hurt me  
I know it's stupid self-destructive pretty much fucking dumb
but I love that little round bum
and babe I'll always love you
no matter how many sausages you stuff in that pussy
how many trains get ran on you  
how many dudes you blew  
I simply love you no matter what you do  
were thru and thru
I know this  
but sometimes I still wish it wasn't like this  
I miss your kiss
those hips
when I would sneak up from behind
plant my hands firmly on them and plant a soft kiss
directly on your neck  
sometimes you would hiss
get all pissy and get that look
that I found sexy and couldn't resist  
I'm like a little boy when I think of you babe  
I stare out into space with a stupid smile on my face  
a dazed ass glaze over the haze you leave me in  
I could talk about you good or bad for days  
depends on your mood that day
but i always wanted you to stay