My hole boy story

In my earliest memories
Dad loved mom
So much
Unapproachable beauty
It Seemed he didn't deserve it
She wouldn't return it

In my dreams I would be the girl
Making love so easy
So pleasing
Though mostly
I loved the girls
One night a boy touched my arm
So eagerly
So warm and nice
But I really liked girls so
I forgot him for a while

Then things started to change
Voice deepening, biceps and abs defining,
I found myself late at night in my bed
Drifting back to weight rooms pumped and sweating
Strong masculine strokes
Equally pleasing to the hand and the cock
My lips gently caressing biceps and eagerly sucking this young man's fingers
Fuck, I'm gay!
No, you're not!
So I forgot

And I really, really loved the girls
I loved them so much, sometimes I wanted to be one
And I loved them so much I could hardly stick with one
But I married one, so sweet
And made three baby boys,
So, now was the time to be a man
Just be a man
Stay at home

But late at night the places I'd go
I loved my darling bride
But fuck, the feelings I needed to hide
The drive I could no longer control
Crashed us against the rocks
Spraying waves of tears,
Anguish, despair
Confession, rage, remorse, softening
Forgiveness, passion, ecstasy fuck I love you so much I can't let go!
She loved me so much she couldn't let go
But she couldn't share me
But now she knows

And now I'm finding I can share me
At least with her
And with time who knows
As we search deeper into each others hearts
We plunge deeper into each others bodies
Gradually loosening the ties of anxiety
Freeing a strange hunger for forbidden places, that forbidden hole, why is that the place I crave it drives me crazy I can't get enough who gives a fuck I just fucking love it and so does she
And then she snores
And I need just a little more
And I go to my place where men in lace stuff cocks in their assholes and as my darling wife likes to say I "handle myself"
And while I don't get enough sleep and I don't get everything I think I want
I sleep the peaceful sleep that comes from two orgasms and a clean conscience.
And later this week we are going shopping for strap-ons and who knows
What the future will bring