I Knew

I think it was the second time I- You asked me before yo-. I think it was the second time I saw you. You were wearing your David Bowie shirt and you looked like you just woke up and your eyes brightened up when you saw me and...I just knew. You came up to me and gave me this huge warm embrace that I can feel at this second- our hearts beating in tandem- and I just knew. I just knew that you were something special...something I shouldn't ever let go of. We connected and our root-like souls intertwined, growing stronger and deeper with each second. Nothing was official between us...but we just knew. I had all of these conflicting thoughts and feelings in my head and I wanted to tell you! I really did but I couldn't...I just couldn't....Then you said you were leaving. Being here wasn't good for you. It was time for you to go. We saw each other one last time and you said, "I have a present for you." You...you wrote me a song. It was as if you knew just what to say to make everything feel alright again...It was getting late and it was time for me to leave. I grabbed you in one last embrace and begged you, "please don't go!" You held me tighter and said, "I have to go. I'm sorry. Days came and went and then weeks and soon...you slipped through my fingertips like sand....Why, why did you have to go? I needed you, why couldn't you see that? I realize now that I met the love of my life, but the timing was wrong...EVERYTHING WAS WRONG! I- I try distracting myself but...as soon as I'm alone...I can't help but thing of how much I miss you. I know now that I loved you. No, I LOVE you. I am in love with you! I love you with every being in me. Why didn't I realize it then? I- I just...wish I knew