Blinded Mind

Yeah , this is where I stop. Or should I say draw the LINE? Hasta La Vista my old friend it's about time, for too long have you ruined this body for too long have you been devouring my mind. Should've  stopped years ago but you know what they say : "Love is blind."
But thanks for always having my back and thanks for always providing a place to hide , protected me so well not even reality could find...
The broken pieces of a once whole me, staring at my past and fearing yesterday is not yet history.
This is my life and you don't have a say , So why do I keep finding myself outta the lead-role at the end of the day?
Stop taking over like you have my consent, Yeah but one SNUFF later and it's : "money well spent."
It doesn't even matter where it came from it doesn't even matter if it was Earned,Stolen or Lent ...
You treat me like a fool taking over my mind with powers I struggle to subdue. And you told me to fear those men in Blue, How was I so' blind that I didn't realize that the true killer was you?

I just don't get it : how can DUST be this strong?
Why the FUCK didn't I just stick with my Zig-Zags and Bong?
Why the FUCK did I even tag along?
Why did I take that first step on the white BRICK road?
Dropping bullets like there was no time to reload...
Things got so' white that I am in Africa and I swear it snowed!
"Chemicals are killer!" trying to respect the stoner code.
But my " new best friend's " got me running in on full attack mode!

Yeah it was like love at first sight...
I had sweaty palms and a heart running all night.
She was beautiful but with a deadly bite , demons were hiding inside this shadow-dressed up in white!
I prepared for battle but it wasn't even a fight.
The bullets were dropping left and right , it was like a gang-war but instead of guns these guys were packing dynamite!

++ Yeah and welcome to the BIG league where reality doesn't exist, where thoughts automatically converge with those of a recidivist...
Where anything good is clouded by a CHEMICAL mist.
This is the point where you can try and stop but your own brain insists : where there is now, no means to subsist!
The power when autopilot kicks in and you need a lift....
The moment you realize you've chased away all of your assist!
The true moment you realize : That you're now floating around in this lonely,cold abyss...++

Trust me when I say:
Chemicals are not a joke!!!
It's the fallen-angel himself concealed under a WHITE cloak , the objective is to make you choke, OPEN your eyes : he's practically giving you the rope!
So go ahead and tie your own noose!
While I sit back and wait for all of HELL to break loose.