Am I the Heaviness Within or am I the Witness?

Ecstatic

Feeble

I am safe in my body

What’s the difference between a belief and knowing?

Fluctuation

It’s a different feeling the moment you are open to it

Colour

It won’t be this bad all the time

Witnessing becomes healing

Benevolence

That’s what I did when she was gone

It’s all so surreal

Scaring myself

Fathom

Nothing is guaranteed

Why?

Life is a fatal disease

Thanks for seeing me in my dreams last night

Sometimes I feel guilty for being happy

Recollect

Every time we pass that site she makes the sign of the cross

Thoughts rise

Thoughts fall

Praying for a miracle

Feel your embrace

Release

My body is experiencing fear right now

Extract the lesson

Stabilize

Leaving a bad taste in my mouth

Transcend

Nothing seems real anymore

I love you

Spinning out of control

My faith carries me to victory

I am safe in my mind

Blessings

Wallow

There’s times where you wonder will you ever feel better again and you continue reaping the sorrows and longing for better days until one day out of nowhere you just laugh



Mind

Ache

Devoted attentiveness  

The body is constantly reflecting the thoughts we have believed

Love your unlovingness

Demise

Tangible

Reap the sorrows

Affliction

Now we have a dysfunctional personality

Rest

Bringing it to the surface and making it move

Grit

What happens to the brain and body on a cellular level?

The “I am” can never be fearful

Essence

Psyche

I don’t want to be with this pain anymore

Miracle

Can’t be justified

Irreconcilable

Playing hide and seek with your thoughts and emotions

Departure

Nostalgia hurts

Raw

Plagued you for some time now

Tense

God please give me strength

Shallow waters

Once I get to that place then I’ll find peace

Menacing

It’s no longer frozen anymore

Conquer myself

Vehement

Just like a hamster on a wheel, except not in a cage

Disillusioning

Looked like the Pieta holding the way she held him in her arms

What is my old self?

Lethargic

What’s going to be normal after this?

Enlightenment

Waves of self-doubt

Knocking at the back of your brain

Deplore

Embrace the feeling that thought brings

Innervation

There are other kinds of space than the physical space that these thoughts are taking up

Fretfully discontented  

Desiderate

Spent energy on lost causes

Revel in it

I’m just pretending to get through today

Mindfulness

Unfrozen the frozen

Raw

But always put Love first

How much longer?

A reckless gesture could ruin everything

Debilitating

Earthly human illusions

Ready to crack

I’m trying

I'm trying

I swear I'm trying

Consciously analyzing the conscious

Visuals you can’t shake

Taking its toll

Surrender

A heart so deeply loved

Sensations I’m tired of sensing

Share love

Its okay you can go now, don’t feel the need to stay here for us

I feel robbed

Profound experience

It’s something bigger than you

At my limit

How do I find strength?

That was the sweetest moment of my life, a memory I will hold onto for forever

Anguish

Went to mass to see if there was a God

It’s funny how dreams seem like nothing at the time until an event passes and everything seems so clear

My body is dehydrated from all these tears

Are we ever truly at peace?

Can’t be just mere coincidence

Repine

Finding it difficult to revel in the joy of others

Be with it

Sustained in love

I’m just pretending

Just let your body feel it

Sick with hate

You will

Don’t judge the feelings and emotions inside of you

Anytime now

Most awake when it’s time to sleep

Let the feelings be

I pray for you everyday

Be

Not good. Not bad. Just is.

Can’t be reconciled  

Just today

I’m not afraid anymore

Now how do you put love first when you are not loving?

Insanity of the ego

Just allow it

A life so beautifully lived

Resilient bodies

Touches my soul

It’s too much

Rebuild yourself

Thoughts dissolve

Tranquility

Cutting the chords of attachment

Illness wrecks you

Opportunities shattered

Feel it, heal it

Selfish desire

Surpassing disappointment

I rejoice

Reclaim myself

Debasing

Do it so you can be free to be something else

Incongruous

Out of sight but certainly not out of mind

Belief thieves

Internal battle

With every delay a blessing is on its way

Can’t force existence

Self-discipline

Go through grow through

Appreciation

Sweet confinement

I guess everyone has their own cross to bear

It happens

All just a play of energy

Its obliges you to shift your conscience whether you want to or not

Vexation of spirit

Don’t believe everything you think

Natural reaction

Peace before place

Electromagnetic reality

Behind that polite demeanor

Listen to it

Am I the heaviness within or am I the Witness?