Gone

We lost our oldest kid to drugs
Last night he walked out and now he's gone
The kid we raised is gone
But he was already gone
He was gone no matter what

The guy you married in 1993 is gone
The guy who didn't want to be married and fucked around in '98 is gone
The guy who cried in your lap and begged your forgiveness and wrote you a Happy Valentine's Day song in 2001 is gone
The song is not gone, but that guy is gone
The guy who surprised you with a fancy car and hotel room and sex toys on your 20th anniversary is gone
The guy who went to Memphis last year and got drunk and fell for a girl and chased her around Beale street and kept right in the warmth of her fire but didn't burn in the flames is gone
He's not AS gone...
Shadows and atoms of him are still around
but that guy is gone

The baby you gave birth to is gone
That cute-as-fuck kid who said he wants to be either a pediatric neurologist or a rock star is gone
That charming young man who danced and sang on stage while his daddy got drunk in Memphis is gone
Everyone you ever knew is gone
We are only here right now and then we are gone
Every last fucking one of us
We are all goners