The love before

Today when i woke up
   i opened my eyes..
      closed my heart
        so to be free from your lies
Opened my mind,
   but still closing  my heart
     because i know this is where i should  start.
Crushed and dissembled
  my heart will be,
     once i take your love
        and leave it beneath me
The words you said
   still playing like a recorder
      over and over on repeat
    "i love you please don't leave me''
I pressed,
 it played to the end,
  then i pressed rewind
    to the start again
      because i don't want
         your voice to thin
           to disappear
              in the long distance wind
I wanna feel that love again
back before
 we became more then friends
   before cause we was just buddies till the end
     no one got between
       or in our way
         you listened to nothing
          other people had to say
That was back then
 completely different
   from how im feeling today  
No i love you
 not even a hey
   starting to think
     it's better that way.