Not sure of a title yet

I struggle to identify
Myself with anything cause I
Relate to many
Believe in few
How can I believe
When there is nothing that you do

No, I can't believe
It's just too easy to deceive
If Seeing is believing
Then my eyelids are retreating
And my body is left seeking
For its empty place of seating

But wait this can't be it
There must be so much more than this
What is it I can't get
Im Clouded in this abyss
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It's hard when all I know is knowing
Trusting blindly, cards are showing
"No wait stop. no secrets here"
I think it's best that I get going

I look at your eyes I see the empty
And it's killing me
Cause your premise is eternity
But it's nothing but the past you see
You see, it's not your dad and I that disagree
On his policy
It's your ridiculous notions that I'm free
I can't be free
I'm stuck hiding,

good luck finding
Me or my soul
I fake smiling
It's getting old
I'm deciding
What I am told
I'm finding wood
But wanting gold

But wait this can't be it
There must be so much more than this
What is it I can't get
I'm Clouded in this abyss
I'm stuck inside disarray
torn apart by own thinking
My Thoughts are all locked away
I can't speak unless I'm sinking

How can it be love
You're trying to show
You're telling me stop
He's telling me go
I'm trying to see
I'm trying to know
I'm trying to break
But it's messing the flow
The rhythm, the words
The pace of the show
The tempo, the speed
It's getting too low
You're cutting me down
While I'm trying to grow
How can this be love
That you're trying to show
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I'm stuck inside disarray
Being torn apart by own thinking
Thoughts locked away
I can't speak unless I'm sinking
I'm stuck inside disarray
Being torn apart by own thinking
Thoughts locked away
I can't speak unless I'm sinking