Condemned Lust

I cannot believe this
The women of my dreams is within arms length and I won’t do a thing about it.
She is everything I’ve ever wanted but I want nothing to do with her.
How can such a blessing be such a curse?
My body is aching to have her but my heart has been broken too many times.
I am already hurting inside just picturing the moment she leaves.
Through all that perfection that is her, I can see the pain in her eyes.
I can see she needs me too.
I can see that I am all her heart and mind desire but I cannot be hers.
She will draw me in then break me down.
They are all the same.
It will never change.
I see you need me and I need you too.
I see what you will do even if you do not have a clue.
I see the treachery you can cause.
Believe me. I’ve seen it before.