Lucid Obsessions

Lucid Delusions


Yes,
you were in my dreams again,
even though we are on opposite sides of the world,
I swear in my dreams you are here,

and I don’t want to wake up,
I just want to lay here,
in this world we’ve created,
where we have our secret rendezvouses.

Yes,
it seems like the world is ending,
that World War 3 is imminent,
that all of our emotions are felt in vain,

and I don’t even care,
let it all burn up in brilliant light,
let the bloodthirsty beasts,
be seduced by the violence until we all explode.

Yes,
the world is a crazy place,
these days it seems there’s nowhere left where we can hide,
nowhere except here in our dreams,

and we are emotional refugees,
fleeing the abuses of our past,
running to hopes of a better life,
a place where we can breathe and be free.

Yes,
we are all nostalgic,
for a time we never had,
hopeless romantics in love with the past,

and I know you are gone possibly forever,
but please know I’d do anything to get you back,
back into the warm embrace of your lover,
back to this bed where we dream under these covers.


Yes,
you were in my dreams again,
even though we are on opposite sides of the world,
I swear in my dreams you are here,

and I don’t want to wake up,
I just want to lay here,
in this world we’ve created,
where we have our secret rendezvouses.

Yes,
you are the center of attention,
wherever you go people want to be near you,
everything you say people listen,

and yes many yearn for your touch,
but you don’t want them to touch you,
you only want me to touch you,
but you only let them touch you.

Yes,
you are sadly sadomasochistic,
strangely addicted to the touch of those that lack love,
you’d rather be objectified by strangers than unified with your equal,

and that’s why you feel more comfortable having sex with a stranger,
than hugging someone whom you share a mutual feeling of love,
Love what’s happened to us?
You lost yourself in other people’s desires and I wasn’t man enough to fight back.

Yes,
I ran away like I always have,
I ran on a flight to the other side of the world,
now I’m on the North Island of New Zealand,

and you’re still stuck in that toxic tinsel town of Hollywood,
where nobody cares who you are,
they only care about what you are,
fckn energy vampires sucking the life right out of you.

Yes,
you were in my dreams again,
even though we are on opposite sides of the world,
I swear in my dreams you are here,

and I don’t want to wake up,
I just want to lay here,
in this world we’ve created,
where we have our secret rendezvouses.

Yes,
I guess we can finally have a bit of peace,
thousands of miles from each other,
even though we can’t run forever,

and we can run but we can’t hide from ourselves,
and no mountain is steep enough,
no ocean is deep enough no land is wide enough,
no wall is high enough to keep this flood of feelings away.

Yes,
I have tried everything to cleanse you from my consciousness,
I’ve tried yoga meditation drinking drugs sex and even suicide,
but it seems the only thing that even begins to help is writing these words,

and I write these words,
oh how I write these words,
words to sentences sentences to paragraphs paragraphs to pages,
pages to chapters chapters to books books to anthologies.

Yes,
I’ve written the world’s largest collection of poetry ever written,
I’ve written about everything still it feels like I haven’t said a thing,
just another heartbroken kid lost out here trying to find his way home,

and I want to get this all through to you but you’re too caught up,
in Facebook updates SnapChat vids Instagram likes and Twitter tweets,
I just wish you’d look up and see me again and remember what it was like to be free and in love,
and you say I don’t care but it’s just that I don’t care about those that don’t care about us.

Yes,
you were in my dreams again,
even though we are on opposite sides of the world,
I swear in my dreams you are here,

and I don’t want to wake up,
I just want to lay here,
in this world we’ve created,
where we have our secret rendezvouses…


∆ Aaron La Lux ∆