Cut, Cry and Bleed.

I felt this anger taking over me,
As I pushed you to the ground.
You yelled and begged no,
But I couldnt stop myself.
I had such an urge to make you suffer,
For the pain you caused me.
For all the times I just wanted to
Cut, cry, and bleed.
I yearned for an escape,
One that I never found.
An escape from this world,
All these creeps and maniacs.
But now I've realized I am just like them.

Your arm was bleeding,
Your blood all over my hands.
Dripping onto the floor.
Your skin under my fingernails.
One more hard hit,
Should take you out.
But she walked through that door,
A frightened look on her face.
She just saved you.
I looked down at you and my hands.
I realized what I had done.
Ashamed, I hung my head.
She screamed and helped you up.
Looking at me with a disgusted
Look on her face.
I am a disgrace.
You got cleaned up,
I walked away.
Will she ever forgive me?
Or is the monster inside me
Too powerful and there to stay?