sinister sunshine

passing by me unnoticed and untouched you didn't see me
I'm no angel with wings and my demon horns are all fucked up
twisted and torn between two separate worlds
unleashing the night inside makes me ignite inside
the well runs deep inside you whispered to me
fluttering by unnoticed  evil masks masking defeat
I bleed for your sins and you spit on me
I caved to your weakness because you grew on me
I loved you so intensely it took from me
never once did I ask for anything
I went hungry so you could feed
I went broke so you had shiny things
I took it all out and wrapped it up nicely
my beating heart you stabbed so viciously
easily and without merci you devoured my seed
I liked that part when you were swallowing me
I liked the times you pretended to love me
I liked the times you never rejected me
always allowing my soul to speak freely
I'm sorry for the times I wasn't listening
I'm sorry for making you feel like you were boring
I'm sorry for all the times I was so horny  
but really I'm sorry for being me,
I'm sorry I'm me it's all I know how to be
I'm sorry you thought of me for those months and weeks
I'm sorry we ended it with you in the street.
but I'm not a bitch and I refused for you to use me,
you got a reality check that was done clearly
but still i miss those cold dead eyes
cold dead lies upon a sunshine covered mind.