helpless

 I am hurting
and that makes me feel sad
someone I cared for deeply has just died
and it seems so unfair
I feel helpless

there is a void deep inside me now
an empty hurting space
the only person that can fill it is dead
I am alive still but I feel so guilty
just wish I could have helped them
in their desperate hour of need

feel so sick
so lonely
cant stop crying
it hurts
hurts so much
please come back to me please

I know you cant answer me
even though I am on my knees
praying for some sort of forgiveness
a way out of this fucking distress
I am such a mess