True pain

My love, my envy.
My hate, my sorrow.
My sin, my accomplishment.
My life, my world
All full of misery and lies
Rain pours from the coal black sky,
entwining with gruesome painful cries.
My life is not the life it seems.
Take a good hard look.
It's full of broken dreams.
Trust me. Hell took over today.
No angel savior to come,
No way out. No way back.
Can you even hear me?
Do you see?
I'm not sure whats worth fighting for.
Not anymore.
I lie inside myself for hours.
Broken. Lifeless. Confused.
The tears i cry have no meaning.
The wounds will never heal.
I stay in love with my sorrow and regrets.
Does anyone.. Anyone at all, realize the pain i truly feel?