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My View

Well, you were right
Congratulations I guess
I'm sure you're happy about it
So here's to the ego boost
And no I'm not ashamed to admit it
I trusted your judgment for a reason
You are good at assessing character
And your intelligence was never discounted
Honestly the annoyance is in your attitude
I imagine you feel I deserved this treatment
And you're relishing in the fact I got burned
You feel that my pain was earned

For the record I'd never wish that upon you
And I do feel bad for all you've been through
In spite of what you think I bear you no ill will
There are things I won't let damage kill
I won't forget the good times we had
And how well you and I overcame the bad
I choose to remember our unique connection
And not to fill it with negative attention
Because yes, I'm not happy with how things went down
And of course I'm angry at what I found
I'm hurt by some of your actions
And I disagree with your perspective
No I don't see things your way
Just like you don't see things from mine
I don't feel you were entirely receptive
But that doesn't equate to feelings of hatred

I want nothing more than your happiness
And I'm so thrilled you're half way there
You're as deserving of love as any other
And more worthy than most I've known
I could only give it to you in doses
And not quite the way you wanted
I can't feel bad about what I'm not capable of
Just like you can't for guilt you've long carried
I hope you've forgiven yourself for your mistakes
And that you currently exist in a much better place
Let the others talk with judgment
I know the good that lives in you
They don't quite know you like I do
Nor understand what we've been through
Our friendship was the truth
All those years were the proof

I don't know if one day you'll hate me less
But I'm not going to spend my life wondering, either
It's up to you how you choose to see things
And I'm not here to change your mind
And I've long finished with hope you'd see my side
I can accept that we both can't reach understanding
But what I won't accept is tainted memories
Still you can go ahead and bury me
It would be really sad to see
But if that's what you need
Then do what you have to do to find peace
I can't hold detachment against you

I hate to make assumptions about what you think and don't
And if emotions wouldn't get the best of me, I doubt I'd bother
But I suppose it's something humans do when they wonder
And when they reminisce on all that is now lost
Those heated exchanges seem meaningless now
We both said things we shouldn't have said
It's not that they don't matter, but they are less relevant
Because how you live in my head is still prevalent
Transparent words in light up display
Reflective heart on this page
So you can see my view at its present stage
Only so well can it be conveyed
And no, I'm no longer ashamed
Even if it is me you blame
Honestly I'm just here to tell you
If ever you should dare to look
That I still treasure all we shared
And I remember how we both cared
And even though your stance has been declared
I hope you choose not to forget
All that made our connection amazing
It sucks that our hearts couldn't be spared
Written by WoundedHeart
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