The memory of pain

Eyes, beautiful and blue
Joyous laughter sounds anew
My thoughts are words unsung
If you think them beautiful, you are wrong

Eyes, once so clear and bright
Now clouded, hidden from the light
Thoughts full of sorrow
A new day shall begin tomorrow

Everyone sees the bright smile
Little they know, its not real, not by a mile
They see and move on
How I wish I were gone

They say they know me,
that what they know is true
How I wish to go to the sea
How I miss the wondrous view

Thoughts, clouding in my head
Are the words that remain unsaid
Graphic, vicious, and horrible
The pain is almost unbearable

I do not wish to worry them
Not of all my thoughts of HIM
So I keep quiet, thoughts safe in my head
The new day begins with a new thought of dread


Memories, meant to be sweet, with joyous sound
But not for me, as I am beat to the ground
My only escape, the books I have read
My pain once shown covered in red

Free as I am from the evils I knew
Its ugly face rears into view
Scared as I am, I make no sound
I do not wish to worry them as I am on the ground


My pain from the past
How I wish it won't last
Now defines my future for me
A future now, I can no longer see

The future, wild and untold
Is what keeps me going, tenfold
The pain, so real and strong
I ask "why was I done so wrong?"

Pain by those who were to love me
Hurts worse when you long to be free
Pain turns to raw anger
Anger for myself, along with a stranger


I do not wish for them to worry
As I hide my blind fury
I try and try to keep the beast away
Why won't the memories just go away?


Why to the plague my dreams?
No sound comes from my silent screams
Eyes now clouded and dull
Bear not the pain fighting in my skull


Memories meant to be sweet and kind
Only bring terror in my mind
HIS face, bring only fear
His mocking laugh at my single shed tear


I keep quite, for I know what he'll do
I stay in silence as I'm beat, black and blue
When all is done, and he is gone
I sing quietly, a mournfull song

Song so sad, sung so lowly still
Though he tries to break her will
She is strong and she will fight
Til her last breath, with all her might


Though she knows she will not last
She tries to win against her past
Long and hard, she fights them all
But in her loss and their victory, is her crumbling wall


Her wall gone, it is no more
She lies beaten and bruised, on the floor
Vision fading, covered in black
She realizes that she is free, never to go back

Eyes open once more, not to black but to white
A smile graced her lips as she stepped to the light
She looks at herself, in awe of no pain
No black, no blue, all color is the same

Long has been lost, the shine of blue
She spread her wings and flew
Gone from that terrible place,
You now only see a small smile on her face


Thoughts once full pain and dread
The words in her mind once unsaid
The song has changed from one of sorrow
To one of peace for the new tomorrow


The memory still there, never leaving
No longer makes a heart wish to stop beating
Though she does not truly have wings
Her mind flies through the clouds, to better things


All is done, all is set
Never will she be to forget
All is done, the past dead
No longer does she want a river red


Safe and sound, in a warm embrace
A single tear shed upon her face
From that place, she wished herself gone
Now someplace new, she has found where to belong