It Makes Me Happy Just to be Alive.

I sit here and think of all the bad things in my head.
How I hated my life and how I wanted to be dead.

How people hated me and how I hated myself
And how my pain couldn't be solved by anything else.

Suiside was it.
That was the way to escape.
I had to end my life before it was to late.

I closed my eyes and let it all sink in..
As the air around me got paper thin.

I took one last drag of my cigarette
Looked down at my phone, I couldn't do it yet. 

I saw that you texted me one simple line.
I love you, goodnight.. Be with me forever.. Always be mine.

I couldn't do it.. I droped the gun and started to cry.
I texted you back one reply.

I love you too... If I didn't have you I wouldn't wanna be alive..
I took one simple text to change my mind.

Just to picture him Laughing
Makes me happy just to be alive.