Shattered Love

We met on Canada Day,
We never slept together,
We watched movies until the wee hours of the morning.

Tender cuddles, and compassionate kisses were exchanged.

I loved the way you held me so close,
every time you gently touched me goose bumps would arise.

We spent the next week together,
until I informed you that I was moving.

You stayed with me for three days,
and then drove me to the bus station.

Just before leaving, you asked me to be yours.
I have never seen a "man" cry, but it was real with you.

I said yes, and not even a week apart, you came to see me for two weeks.

You dumped me in that visit atleast three times.. and I always took you back.

You asked me to move back with you, and I said yes.

I taught you how to kiss,
I taught you how to fuck,
I taught you how to tease,
and I taught you how to make me beg.

The sex was unbelievably amazing.
You had such a soft gentle way of loving, until you wrapped your hand around my throat that one evening..

Things started to change..
It wasn't domination you wanted..
You wanted to humiliate me.. and you did very well.

Bruises upon my wrists well hidden, from you tying me up.
Bruises upon my throat from you choking me..
I flinched every time you would raise your voice.. and every time you went to touch me.

You broke up with me quite a few times.. but I was so inlove with the idea of love, I kept fighting for you..

You killed my unborn child..
I will never forgive you.

I was homeless for three months to keep us together..

You're friend told me when you sent me back here.. that the lady I was staying with, was the lady you were cheating on me with..

She broke us up.. just to take my place.. she ended the marriage she was in to be with you..

Little did she know,
You're threats of taking my life, and beating me up, because of your military background, was taken more than lightly..

You broke up with her,  because you were tired of the drama.

You were the problem.

And now I live with the memories.

Not all are bad.. not all are good..

There was a time it was true..
But now, the only thing true is the charges and jail time you face.

Thank you,
For helping me see my self worth.

I am not greatful for the way you have tainted me..
I'm scared to love again,
I'm scared to trust anyone anymore,
you broke me.. and it isn't fixable..

You'll never leave my mind..
and I'll never forget how much you hurt me..