A Dream That Hurts My Soul

 
I had a dream last night
And I know I understand
The things that happened to me
In that unconscious land

I don’t usually remember the dreams I have at all
It seems they’re lost as soon as I become aware
And are hidden in my heart or soul
Or just vanish in the air

And so I wonder why I kept this one
It confuses and disturbs me and I wish I never kept it in my mind
It was a friend I had from a long long time ago
Who deserted me along the way in my most needful time

We talked for such a long time
And he tried to say that he was sad to me
For just leaving me alone back then
But it was just a dream

And I wish that I had never kept this dream
Inside my needful head
When I awoke today to think about
A friendship that was dead

So I sit here in my bed in the dark before the sun
And curse my mind for giving me this dream to think about at all
Why can’t I just remember a happy time instead
Before my friends all disappeared and left me here alone

So now I try to force myself to sleep while it’s still dark as night
So perhaps I can just let it go and forget about the nightmare in my soul
As I normally forget them all with mornings brilliant light
Just erase these angry thoughts I have as into sleep I fall

Take away the hurtful things
That I do so well to hide
Away from in my waking mind
And just leave me here alone
To forget about it all
Again