Please....

I feel it all slipping away ,gnawing, clawing, to hold on through ,only the last minutes of day.The words,the visions ,seem so clear,as I'm frozen in this  gillatine of fear.I'm only safe sitting right here,each decision spins my down a dark hole of nothing to lear.I feel the melting as I  slink away , the nothingness, and I, love to play. I have donated my heart ,soul ,for them to crush ,then scold.Still you strip me raw my bold,useless ,cold. I prayed to up ,not a sound ,I've begged to down ,still lost in sand ,all around. Yes I am free ,to roam ,to do ,then reality her chains are cold ,blue.She reminds me ,how it's nothing to be you,then dares me to even try to move. I can't live with the man in me,they have trained him to lie ,not see.On the outside touch me I'm real,inside my mind, he laughs,steals.Emotions have come, and faded,nothings more real than reality jaded.Another day lost in horror, it's formal .Please give me the answers,I just want to be normal.                            Pwt..