everything is nothing

I am nothing.
Ive never been anything.
I just am.
I own nothing but love and fear.
Ive never done anything.
My existence is not significant.
My existence is not necessary.
But here I am.
Everything I've ever put faith in has shown itself to be false or faulty.
My nation is a manipulative and oppressive force.
My religion turned out to be a delusional hope and tool of control.
My God turned out to be nothing more than a process of my own brain.
The world I sleep in is more real than the one I wake up to.
I wont believe in myself and I cant believe in you.