Pain within

A memory past
A pain that's still within
A bliss at the time
Then  a scar to hide

A thought is all it takes
One movement and its done
An internal conflict...
Help me........

"Do it".....
"Don't please".....
"You know you miss it!!"....
"Think of who you will be hurting besides yourself...the one you love"

One cut..... That's all, just one.
"Save me...."
"Come on do it......You're so weak..."
"Some one please save me..."

I scream but no one hears
Tears fall but no one sees
Am I invisible?
Am I that alone?

"You're weak minded."
"No one really cares!"
The release of pain,
The beginning of secrets

Lies of "I'm ok!"
Blinded by " It was the cat"
The truth " no I'm not ok"
Seeing it was really me

My memories of the past
My pain that is within
My release at the time
My burden to keep