how 'eye' escaped

I remember the 1st time I tripped and fell
the scrapes and bruises hurt like hell

instantly tears rushed to my eyes
screaming and crying and asking why

second time I fell was a stumbling fall
tumbling downhill like a ball
 
I barely noticed the pain at all
tucked it away behind a wall

last time I fell, I said to hell with this
3 strikes i'm out, that's it, i quit

fuck love and everything it stood for
my heart simply couldn't stand anymore

I slipped into numbness, last time I fell
that placid place between heaven and hell

afraid to feel cause feelings hurt
leaves you ,bruised and broken, in the dirt

see I slipped into numbness, didn't wanna feel a thing
no prickly, pinching, aching sting

Tho I wanted to free fall in loves embrace
 the fact of the matter I was afraid I'd fall flat on my face

but then one day it dawned on me
numb may not hurt but it sure is heavy

ever had your foot fall asleep?
hard to walk tall when you cant feel your feet

numb weighs you down, even tho you don't feel it
it binds you,confines you,unto nonexistence

it becomes difficult to distinguish whats real
if you cant see hear smell taste or feel

senseless,may as well be dead inside
with no awareness of what its like to be alive

no way to make sense of the world we live in
so pardon me,if sometimes i'm "off in my feelings"

see its how i manage, my way of dealing
its my process,part of my healing

"eye" finally escaped old habits that imprisoned me
it was i who locked the door so only i could set me free




*** inspired by the pic and by the quote "fear can stop your love...but love can stop your fear"